The women who helped raise me…

The reason why I get along better with elders. 

Why I always keep my heat past 80. 

Why I love Golden Girls, Matlock, and get nostalgia seeing Sesame street.

Why I LOVE large puzzles…

My story: After performing and getting my first standing ovation from 150+ people at Gateway Middle, later I auditioned for CVPA and was put on the waiting list. Never heard from them. I was devastated, but ended up continuing my…

I got so much love from my city on Sunday. But for the first time in my life, I passed out from heat exhaustion right on the very last song. 😩 It was a health scare wake-up call for me…

In elementary school, I ate lunch in the bathroom alone. In middle school, I ate lunch in the bathroom alone. In high school, I found the music room and ate lunch alone, with a piano. And now still to this…

The Rose that grew from concrete contemplates her freedom…should she allow past restrictions and trials to shape her story, or will she move to greener pastures where her light can be celebrated and not dimmed? Will she let her hard…

My favorite part of my musical career in St. Louis has always been meeting crazy talented musicians and artists I've always admired from afar. I finally let them know how dope I think they are...all to have them in turn…

More about Obsessive Love and Borderlines

• Idealization. Putting someone on a pedestal. Falling in love with the idea of someone. Never ending fleet of muses. I’m coming to the realization that I’m more in love with the songs I write…

I've gained a lot of weight since 2019, and over the past year have quietly talked down to myself, compared myself to social media standards, under eat, over eat, work out to a point of hurting myself, only to binge…

I can say that finally, at 29, I am comfortable in my own skin. I don’t feel the need to do performative femininity as much. I don’t feel pressured to look “presentable” 24/7. And it’s such a liberating feeling man…

Taking madness, disappointment, despair, and overthinking and creating some physical manifestation of beauty from it. Therefore healing myself through whatever creation I made in a moment pain. Full circle. This song spilled right outta me. Turn your pain into art…

10/23/2020 

Started on the Westside 

There is beauty in chaos. In pain. In death. The purpose of life I guess...  

As someone who came from one of the poorest, most neglected parts of St. Louis city, I'm pretty damn proud…

I just wanna make beautiful dresses and gowns and walk around in them...even to the grocery store. 😂 May I be blessed with beginner’s luck cuz I have no patience. I’m an impulsive and obsessive creator. I have to make…

Having C-PTSD and Borderline just means that past events have impacted me so deeply, that growing up, my brain rigged itself to pick up on the slightest bit of abuse. I was also born highly sensitive, so I can easily…

I'm a big ass cry baby empath. 

Today I biked to the park for a moment of isolation 

While walking I stumbled upon a dead sparrow 

Instantly, I felt grief...I've been more sensitive than usual lately...something about it's eyes. 

I…

This is my story as well...

Having BPD is like having a real bad cough in your fucking throat and holding it in to make everyone else comfortable, but alas, it's just too much...and the longer you hold it in…

1. Met Chick Corea at the Jazz St. Louis and got the best advice ever. "Play like YOU." 

2. Won championship at an all women's beat battle. #FemFest #FreshProduce 

3. 5 days later went to ATL to perform at the…

In the weeks leading up to the release of Cocoa Voyàge, I had my heart shattered, was betrayed and abandoned by people I thought cared, had my name dragged through the mud, suicidal, in debt...I went to therapy and was…

Opinion. Things I notice A LOT of my musician and artist peers need, but are not getting: 

-Living wages 

-Affordable housing 

-Non-Gentrified creative spaces 

-Therapy/Mental Health Help 

-Insurance 

-Supportive, uplifting environment 

-Event planners that are fair, professional and organized 

-Trustworthy…

Went outside today and got some healing. The sky caught me as I remembered a dream I had years ago where I was floating towards the sky...and was deathly afraid. I grabbed everything I possibly could...car doors, lamp posts...anything to…