In elementary school, I ate lunch in the bathroom alone. In middle school, I ate lunch in the bathroom alone. In high school, I found the music room and ate lunch alone, with a piano. And now still to thisā¦
The Rose that grew from concrete contemplates her freedomā¦should she allow past restrictions and trials to shape her story, or will she move to greener pastures where her light can be celebrated and not dimmed? Will she let her hardā¦
My favorite part of my musical career in St. Louis has always been meeting crazy talented musicians and artists I've always admired from afar. I finally let them know how dope I think they are...all to have them in turnā¦
Idealization. Putting someone on a pedestal. Falling in love with the idea of someone. Never ending fleet of muses. Iām coming to the realization that Iām more in love with the songs I writeā¦
I've gained a lot of weight since 2019, and over the past year have quietly talked down to myself, compared myself to social media standards, under eat, over eat, work out to a point of hurting myself, only to bingeā¦
I can say that finally, at 29, I am comfortable in my own skin. I donāt feel the need to do performative femininity as much. I donāt feel pressured to look āpresentableā 24/7. And itās such a liberating feeling manā¦
Taking madness, disappointment, despair, and overthinking and creating some physical manifestation of beauty from it. Therefore healing myself through whatever creation I made in a moment pain. Full circle. This song spilled right outta me. Turn your pain into artā¦
I just wanna make beautiful dresses and gowns and walk around in them...even to the grocery store. š May I be blessed with beginnerās luck cuz I have no patience. Iām an impulsive and obsessive creator. I have to makeā¦
Having C-PTSD and Borderline just means that past events have impacted me so deeply, that growing up, my brain rigged itself to pick up on the slightest bit of abuse. I was also born highly sensitive, so I can easilyā¦
Having BPD is like having a real bad cough in your fucking throat and holding it in to make everyone else comfortable, but alas, it's just too much...and the longer you hold it inā¦
In the weeks leading up to the release of Cocoa VoyĆ ge, I had my heart shattered, was betrayed and abandoned by people I thought cared, had my name dragged through the mud, suicidal, in debt...I went to therapy and wasā¦
Went outside today and got some healing. The sky caught me as I remembered a dream I had years ago where I was floating towards the sky...and was deathly afraid. I grabbed everything I possibly could...car doors, lamp posts...anything toā¦